Want some cheese with that whine?

     The worst days for me, the ones that I loathe, are the days I feel whiny. On those days everything seems negative and more personal. I imagine vague comments others make to be insults or subtle 'jabs'. Normally, I'd assume they're having 'one of those days', realizing it has nothing to do with me. I notice everything that seems contrary and get irritated by it. I wouldn't go as far as to say I become paranoid, because I am able to bring myself back to a place of logic and remind myself that it's only momentary, tomorrow will be better. I understand that it's my attitude that makes it personal.
     I try not to interact with too many people on those days, because I don't like me as a whiny person and I want to keep that particular side of me to myself.  When I must interact with others, all my energy goes into being positive and caring. By the end of the day, I'm exhausted. Most of us have seen the commercial with the "Easy Button"?  Well, I want an "Off Switch" so, on those days I can turn the rest of the world off for an hour and mope.
   Thankfully they don't happen very often, but yesterday was one. By the end of the day all I wanted to do was go home and hibernate for the night. (This is where I get to say, "I love my house").  Later, Jim came in after a disappointing soccer game (not because they lost, but because of player attitude) and asked me if I wanted to go out and get a bite to eat.  I really didn't, so when I heard "sure" come out of my mouth I was startled.  I knew he wanted to refocus, relax and unwind, so I put on my shoes and we went.  As it happens, it was just what I needed.  We didn't have to say much about our day except it was not a great day. We were able to chit chat about mundane, day-to-day things and relax.
   I worry that my whiny days have become more frequent but since I AM at THAT age, I know it could be my transition into the next phase of my life. (note how pleasantly I described menopause.)  Anyway, if you find some time that I am less than enthusiastic, I apologize in advance. You can bet it's not about you.  It's more likely me doing the best I can not to whine. After all, I have absolutely nothing (worth the energy) about which to whine.